A Happy Place

Everyone likes to daydream. To create a place within the deepest factions of our minds where everything is perfect. Untouched by the outside world to infiltrate our sacred secret worlds.

Sometimes I alternate between every situation that I want to happen and choose what I deem the best outcome. However, I usually go to one event I made in particular which always seems to calm any anxieties I may have.

There is one place I go to whenever I feel as if I need to escape reality. I often visit this place in my dreams. I often have control of what goes on in this dream like I do when I lucid dream.

I call it,

Winter Wonderland

Snow falls outside onto the yard. The fire blazes on in front of them as she reads. Twinkling tree lights flash a multitude of colors that sometimes hit the reflection on her glasses. She pulls her large grey sweater over her petite fingers to keep them warm. The steaming peppermint cocoa rests on the table next to their feet. He smiles, watching her while she reads intently, unaware of the rest of the world. Holding her close, he places a feathered kiss to her forehead. Breaking her eyes from the book, she looks up at him, a soft red tint colors her cheeks. A large smile forms, not only on her face but to her eyes. Scooting closer to his chest for warmth, she sighs in contentment. The book lay open in her lap as she does so. Looking back down at her book she continues to read on. His fingers trace swirl patterns on her thighs as she reads peacefully. That had become their thing recently. It soothed her and made her feel safe. Soft noises came from the T.V. as The Nightmare Before Christmas played on repeat. They both loved that movie especially around this time of year. With one hand making random patterns on her thigh, he placed the other over the table to grab the Santa shaped mug filled with warm cocoa. The smell of peppermint and cinnamon permeated throughout the entire house. It made her happy to be home. The smell, the weather, the warmth, the feel of the times, the movies, the seasonal drinks, and the lights. But most importantly, him. It wouldn’t be considered their home, without him. It was days like this that she realized how lucky she really was. He always told her that he loved her no matter the circumstance. Of course, those words were hard to swallow, but when given the thought, she knew he really meant it. She had said similar words to him, but today something felt different. She felt as if those words were really sinking into her skin. This made her smile brighten even more as she skimmed the words in front of her. As he placed his cocoa back on the table, she laid a gentle but passionate kiss to his cheek. He smiled at her with a look that said “What was that for?” to which she shrugged and smiled at him. Their love could be felt through every house around them. Those three words of endearment did not need to be said. He could tell exactly what she meant with that kiss. Saying it back, he placed her on his lap as she giggled playfully. Her book fell to the floor with a soft thud. He wrapped his arms around her waist and held her close to him. They exchanged soft and passionate kisses. The snow fell softly outside. The T.V. played their favorite film. Twinkling lights shined everywhere. Peppermint and cinnamon permeated around them. The pungent smell filling every part of the home. They were home.


Cloud 9

When I’m with you I feel as if I’m floating. I’m on the clouds and every worry I have drifts away.

Every moment with you is a moment I want to last forever. My memory can never do the moments we spend together any justice.

I don’t know the future but I know I love you and I want to spend my life making memories with you.

The feeling is so overwhelming. Sometimes it hits me out of nowhere.

No matter how hard I try, I won’t ever be able to fathom the love I feel for you.

Kissing you is so innocent yet it sends this electricity through me. Just being able to touch you and feel your warmth is a sensation I can’t ever get over.


I can’t blame anyone else but myself for trying to search for you in every person I was with. But I blame you for being the best thing that has ever been in my life and not staying. How pitiful it was to find someone who was barely enough for me. How sad it was to watch myself be with people only to fill the void of where you once were.

Live your life

You should live your life for you and no one else. If you are truly happy then that is the only thing that should matter.

Even if everyone around you seems to disagree with you. You shouldn’t let them discourage you from going after what you want.

Stop caring about what other people have to say.

It is the best thing you can do for yourself in order to find happiness.

Push yourself past what you think your limit is. Even if it scares you.

I am the happiest I have ever been and this feeling is like nothing I’ve ever felt before.

I don’t know how to describe it without rambling on and on and getting lost in my thoughts.

My heart is overwhelmed and full of love.

I don’t ever want this feeling to go away.


Truly, Madly, and Unconditionally

I’ve learned over the past few years that to be able to love others to your fullest capacity, you must first value yourself and know your self-worth.

Only recently have I began to fully understand the term “unconditional love”

I care more about their happiness without any thought for what I might get in return.

It is really rare to love someone unconditionally because we are programmed to be conditional.

We expect something in return.

But when it comes to loving someone unconditionally, you don’t expect anything back.

When you love someone, you extend yourself, every vulnerability you have into an uncharted territory with the thought that you want their happiness overall.

This is the kind of love that has no bounds and is unchanging. It is the choice to love this person no matter what is thrown your way.

You get satisfaction out of putting their health and happiness first with no expectation of reward for yourself.

There are multiple ways to notice when you’ve found unconditional love.

Here are some that I have noticed:

1. You can let your guard down with them

2. You demonstrate your love with both words and actions daily

3. You both value the art of communication

4. You can both be fully yourselves with one another

5. You feel at home with them

6. You inspire each other

7. They make you want to be your best self

8. You can tell one another the truth even when it’s hard

9. You put their needs first

10. Your partner encourages you to talk about your anxieties

11. You have respect each other’s values and boundaries

12. There is a satisfaction you feel when loving them, there’s no strings attached

And these are just some. I know there’s plenty more.

Life has been putting me through a lot of trials lately and something I have gained from them is the realization of how far my love truly goes.